Calming Heat

The heat continues to soar and reach new heights not unlike that of the underworld, too many are complain about this heat instead of embracing it. They run for cover and shade, afraid of nature’s gift and unwilling to accept it where as I accept it and I am going to tell you why.

I have always found myself welcomed by the sun, soothed by its heat and calmed by its presence. Even at its peak I endure and allow the rays to engulf my body and strengthen my mind, this sun helps develop a force of will, an ability to push through no matter how extreme. The sun is not my enemy, it is my essence.

The cold chill of the winter months will be a welcome change but those who ran from the sun will also run from the frost too.

Mother Nature’s elements are a reminder of how we only borrow life on this planet and what is borrowed must be given back in the end. The advancements in modern society are something to marvel but we are constantly taking from this earth and eventually that debt will need to be repaid, be it by the second coming of a prehistoric age or our eventual extinction.

Everything returns to the earth, there are no exceptions.

Tomorrow is fast approaching, part of my debt is due and i wonder what the cost will be.

Distractions have been welcome but vagrant thoughts are becoming much harder to subdue and control. Matters are not helped by those who think they’re helping when in fact they are making things worse, causing more unwanted issues and the need for explanation. It seems my antics of the past came at great cost to me, both physically and mentally. The funniest part is for all of my efforts some see them as fake, this truly disappoints me but it does give me a glimpse of their thought process and how they see things.

I find it funny how one simple statement can play on your mind over and over again when normally it would have been brushed off without a second thought. This shows the impact some people can have on your life, the power we allow people to hold can be quite frightening when you think about it.

There is no privacy in the world anymore, nowhere you can go to find calm unless like myself you do not fear the elements. This is the only time I can be alone because this is the only time people can’t be near me because they can’t endure a little discomfort. That is why I welcome the heat and the cold.

Early Bird

As the world sleeps I am awake, finding peace in solitude and comfort in the silence. The early hours of the night welcome me with open arms, like a mother reaching out for her child.

Finally, I feel like I belong once more.

Half of my day has already passed, my work is almost done, all I have left is to put pen to paper or rather fingers to keys and write these simple 400 words.

It’s getting easier.

Perched in a familiar coffee shop I am still largely unknown, the men and woman who reside here in the early hours of the morning are those of high business class, or at least that is what they would have you believe. However their desperate attempt to jumpstart their bodies as what I can only assume was night of broken sleep shows me differently.

Among the zombies dragging their heels there are a few who are awake and walking powerfully with purpose. Each one of these rare people notices me watching the flock, they give a polite nod as a gesture of their appreciation for a fellow person welcomed by the abyss.

There is a focus in their eyes, a determination in their spiritual presence and an unrelenting desire to achieve.

Presumptuous it might be for me to assume all of that from nothing more than a simple pacing glance, but I know enough to trust my gut and it never steers me wrong in such things. That is why I have decided to follow my instincts once more, to cast aside the voices of the others in my head and make each step because I choose to, not because I’m told.

I had become mired in the mud, but now I have pulled myself out.

Time alone, time to plan, time to create, time to grow. I never realised how much I enjoy being a shadow, a nameless face that smiles because he can, not because he should. It’s so easy to get caught up in everything that we start to get dragged down. I have a long way to go, there are still issues that need to be resolved but I will tackle them head on as I always have.

The colour grey still resonates around me, the cloud has not lifted but at least it has broken enough so that I can see the radiant blue sky that await on the other side.

This is another part of my journey, no doubt one of many more to come.

Will you join me through writing and verse?