I can feel the Qi around me once again. Sitting in the secluded river pass helped calm my soul, I could feel everything that was around me.
Sitting with my eyes closed I felt a sharp chilling pain travel up my arm. Turning to see what was approaching from the distance I can see a person worth avoiding, but I decided to stay the course and remain seated but ready.
The presence drew ever closer until the chill travels across my body and through my other arm. I had gone unnoticed. Watching each step take the rotting Qi away from me I felt warmth return, once I gathered my thoughts I decided to leave. I can feel several jagged presences gathering from afar, it was almost suffocating.
What was down the opposite path?
Sometimes it’s best to let sleeping dogs lie.
I must once again being my practice. I must regain my connection. It has been 5 years since that time. Since I lost control… This time it will be different.
It feels as if I am losing my connecting with everything.
My innate sense of my surroundings and feeling the flow of the Qi around me is slowly diminishing. As I spoke to a friend I felt nothing from him, no joy, no sadness, no rage… nothing. I wasn’t even aware of his presence when he was behind me until just before he spoke.
What is happening to me?
Have I become so absorbed by meaningless follies that I am becoming just like everyone else? A drone following a path of nothingness existence. Or is it that I am just losing faith in it all?
My head is filled with questions that I will never have answered, they sear through my mind hour after hour, but the funniest part is no one will know.
It was as if a knife with a blade sharper than razors edge had been thrust into me, waking me from my dreamless sleep.
As I lay there with nothing except silence surrounding me, I can feel a strange Qi emanating from an unknown source. This particular Qi felt sickening, like there was a thousand bad thoughts and feelings flowing through one single person at the same time. It was the feelings of fear, guilt and regret that I could feel the most.
After suffering a night of broken sleep the feeling is no less prevalent. Something is wrong. Like a black storm cloud following me wherever I go, it disrupts my thoughts.
Through meditating I manage to control my thoughts and clear my mind, I can’t explain why but I need to find the source of this energy and quickly, for I fear something bad is about to happen.
It feels like someone’s world is about to be destroyed.