Lost, Loathing & The Self

When did we become so lost?

In our ever advancing intellect and technological achievements, which are truly astounding, we’ve lost something. Do you know what I mean, can you feel that little piece of something that was there is now not, yet it was so slowly dissipated there is now no inkling to what it was.

Perhaps it’s just me, maybe this is why every time I see the posts people share regarding such arbitrary and idealistic nonsense it makes  me cringe.

What is the point in sharing such bollocks?

Apart from gathering some attention on social media and looking like a bit of a tit, what point is there?

It is these eyes that are seeing things through a haze or is this just how things are now?

School shooting, better update my profile and tell people I’m sharing my prayers for them, yet there will be nothing actually done from me to help solve the issue, however so long as people know I care that I’m a good person.

Such heroic nonsense.

In a life that is largely sorrow, pain and suffering, we’re truly blessed if we can have at least a handful of people to call friends or family, yet it is those very people that we treat the worst because we can get away with it, what’s up with that?

Dear god…

Such self loathing. It spreads like a cancer to everything I see. It’s maddening because as much as a different truth is sought, it can’t be found.

Ugh, the jaded man of stories past. Once so hopeful, so ignorant. Blinded by hubris, now incurring the punishment of the self, it’s such bullshit, such twisted self obsessed bullshit and yet the feelings just won’t go away.

For someone who for all intents and purposes has most things ‘sorted out’ from the aspect of living, why does this feeling refuse to subside.

So many closed doors still remain untouched.

I guess those are as good a place to start as any.



8 thoughts on “Lost, Loathing & The Self

  1. I completely agree with you
    Each and every line you’ve written resonated with me and was so powerfully delivered…
    Looking forward to reading more from you!

      • What a beautiful way to put it…
        We all share the agony of heartbreak, the feeling of losing yourself just as you lose everyone you love.
        The pain is what brings us together, and for that, I guess, I’m grateful.

      • That is essentially life.

        This is why any respite is welcome, yet people often miss it as a ‘small thing’ and it’s only when they become so old that al the can do is think, they realise the small things were the big things, the important things, the things that made it all worth while.

      • Exactly… we’ll probably never understand the value of love until it is gone and we are left alone with the noise of our thoughts

        And then, it will be too late to relive those moments and all you can do is look back and regret all those unappreciated moments.


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