So many memories in one song. It’s hard to think that was all over two years ago now because it stills as vivid as the day it happened when I think back.
Listening to the words as each is sung, I can see things from a different angle now. While they speak of longing, they also scream out ‘I am punishing you for hurting me.’ And I never heard that them that way before.
So many days have passed and I still keep those memories safe, not allowing myself to forget because I just don’t want to. It’s pathetic really.
Even though it’s clear what I was, it’s still hard to let go.
It’s still there. The stabbing that hits you in your chest. At least my physical degradation kept my mind occupied for a while and now I need to find something else to do the same, lest I dwell on the past.
What a sorry state of affairs the mind leaves us in eh.