For the first time in a long time I’m scared.
I have taken control by relinquishing control and putting my trust in to someone else. Even though they will succeed and I will then be on the road to recovery physically, I have no idea about the mental aspect of it all.
There will always be the fear of it all happening again and this leap of faith will have been for nothing. No one will give you the answer you want to hear when they know it might come back on them.
Despite my own knowledge and understanding I would still like to hear the false words of comfort, even if I know they’re not true.
They say knowledge sets us free, and it does but it costs more than we’d like to pay.