Does anyone remember the TV show Heroes?
The main character, Peter, he has an interesting journey and by the end of it comes to realise he is the one who is going to become the bomb that destroys everything and all because he loses control.
Half way through the series he realises that he is the problem, yet he still tries to make things right. Eventually though he does indeed explode but just before it all goes wrong he is carried off in to the sky by his brother Nathan, it would seem they both sacrifice themselves, well until you see the second series that is.
What is the point of this post?
I guess I just feel that all of this is getting to me now. I am losing control of my thoughts more and more often, then I struggle to repress all the emotion but eventually I do. It feels like I am a bomb waiting to explode.
Tonights rage was the tip of the iceberg, the worst part is I know that I’ve not even come close to erupting yet. I just want it al to stop, I want it all to go away, I want to go to sleep and never again wake up so I don’t have to keep repeating this cycle of repression so that I don’t do something stupid. I don’t want to live anymore knowing that it’s only a matter of time before it all comes out.
I don’t want to explode, but like Peter I don’t have a choice. It’s not a case of if… It’s a case of when.