Searing Mind

It feels as if I am losing my connecting with everything.

My innate sense of my surroundings and feeling the flow of the Qi around me is slowly diminishing. As I spoke to a friend I felt nothing from him, no joy, no sadness, no rage… nothing. I wasn’t even aware of his presence when he was behind me until just before he spoke.

What is happening to me?

Have I become so absorbed by meaningless follies that I am becoming just like everyone else? A drone following a path of nothingness existence. Or is it that I am just losing faith in it all?

My head is filled with questions that I will never have answered, they sear through my mind hour after hour, but the funniest part is no one will know.