She wants to live a simple life with routine and security. She wants what she saw her parents never have, it is because of this she runs from the truth, it is because of this she hides from herself, it is because of this she will never grow, or move beyond the point of which she currently resides.
In her mind she has mapped out her life, she has decided to take the easy options, my question will always be why?
What is life if not to grow?
I can only hope one day to understand the complexities of the ever contradicting condition that is humanity.