Shadowy Character

“You look to the shadows but hear not a sound, something is there lying in wait, preparing to strike.”

That which lurks in the unseen has begun to show itself, planting seeds in the minds of the weak, seeds to try and destroy that which is precious. This spiteful seed that was planted will come to nothing.

Why is it those jealous few seek to corrupt the world around them? As we sit back and watch their world and how the manipulate that which is weak, it becomes clear they will push for their desired outcome no matter the cost.

The weakness displayed by the first is nothing short of pathetic, creatures of control like this one buckle under the slightest form of resilience. The avenue taken was conniving and sly, it’s good to keep your friends close and your enemies even closer.

This is but only the start of the storm the approaches, the skies have darkened and the wind is still, all there is left to do is wait for the impending maelstrom.

“Each action has a consequence, so choose your actions wisely”

Storms

“The clouds that are in the sky cast a shadow, behind those clouds though is a light so bright waiting for break through.”

I think it is fair to say that my life over the past months has been filled with cloudy skies, I have weathered the storms and taken their thrashings from the rain and hale thrown at me and survived the repeated strikes of lightning that brought me to a single knee time and time again, the coulds that loomed over me have broken, the grace and beauty of the bluest sky has shone through and set me at peace. For now.

The voracious need for attention circles in the air, I have the feeling that something is coming.. I know not what it is but it’s something big that with threaten that which has brought so much light to my darkened soul, when this baleful presence steps out of the shadows it will find that the person who would once have been paralyzed with emotion will show there are no boundaries or risks not worth taking to protect that which has brought so much happiness back into my life. 

As I turn my thoughts to other things I find they always return to one place of late, a place that makes me smile.

“We are not defined by our pasts, when we are able cast off our pride for someone and let go that is what defines us.”

 

Destructive Words

“People will try to put you down for one simple reason. They want to bring you down to their level because they cannot rise up to yours.”

We all hear whispers on the wind, the echoes of accusation from those who see us as nothing more than dangerous insects that must be crushed quickly.

The ominous”they” will always talk, what place is it of ours to care what they say? Rumours, lies and slander will always exist in our world, the best way to deal with it is to simply walk away and ignore that which is said because in the end all there words are meaningless if we do nothing to indulge them.

Walking away will extinguish the flames that are rising beneath you, to retaliate and attack will only serve to stoke the fires, doing this you will be the cause of your own incineration.

A sad truth that many will deny is the worst words and most malicious lies come not from our enemies but our friends.

Friends who seethe with jealousy, their subtle little put downs and attempts to strike at our hearts often go unnoticed, each time thoughts try and manipulate our emotions, true friends support you no matter what. A vigilant eye is needed, once you have suffered betrayal you are purified to the sights of the true world and a cruel world filled with snakes it is, you will be able to see even that which you do not wish too, it’s a curse masked as a gift.

Accept everything you are and wear it proudly, when you do it can never be used to hurt you. Wise words I once heard.

“Listen not to the negative words of this fickle world, such words are only meant to keep you from ascending to heights beyond those trying to hold you down.”

The Journey

The journey was long and now it ends,
The path I followed has run it’s course,
The new life starts with both old and new friends,
The choices I make I feel no remorse.
To have a new path has set me free,
To look to the horizon with an eager eye,
To know as I walk it’s not only me,
To let the past go and never ask why.
These words of mine are honest and true,
These trials I’ve faced had choices to make,
These lessons I’ve learned carried me through,
These risks that I see are mine to take.

Drowning Thoughts

“She is drowning in a sea of thoughts and emotion that is clouding her judgement.”

“Sonia” comes to me again with a guarded smile, more natural than I have seen previously but still guarded. She has been told words that she wants to hear by a man who is playing a game, shrouded in mystery he is.

After learning from her he is already with someone I can see no happy ending for her, if he was as unhappy as he described and cared for “Sonia” as much as he claimed he would have made the choice no matter how hard and be with her, I’ve seen such games time and time again, intentional? Perhaps, either way it seems to me that he is “falling” for the idea of her because she is everything his current partner used to be.

“I know he will make me happy” she says to me, sincere as her words are they are said with a hint of desperation. After she has been so hurt I can understand her lust for companionship and love. The only advice I can offer is this “if you really feel that way then tell him, remember though if he felt as he claims he would not be making excuses as.to why he can’t leave his Partner. It’s hard he says, I don’t want to see her hurt, it’s a bad time…” such excuses I’ve heard before.

My prayers are with her for the outcome she hopes for, personally though I feel she is not in the right place and wants something, anything that will stop her pain.

“Power without a doubt is in the hands of each person to choose their own course of life.”

To see

To see the past falling apart,
The vicious look behind their eyes,
How destructive they are together,
Seeing all this with not a stir of emotion because I’ve moved on.

I’ve found the girl of my dreams,
She was there all along,
Disguised as one of my best friends,
Now as I look back at the broken world that I’ve left behind I smile,
Because when I look forwards all I can see is my future,
And she is it.

The Right Time

“There are those who love us, those who don’t and those that pretend. In time you learn who is real and who is fake.”

Today I was talking to “Sonia” for an extended period of time, she has been have troubles that are causing broken sleep, stress and over thinking. As she sits before me nothing is out of place, her hair is immaculate, her make up is perfect, her poise is graceful and all looks “fine” beneath it all though I can see a maelstrom of emotion tearing through her.

She struggles with the troubles of her past and how humiliated she was, how she was treated like nothing more than a broken toy and kept only for simple amusements. People can be cruel.

The life she once had is long gone and she tries to move on, searching desperately for that person who will hold her close and put all the broken pieces back together.

She explains about people she has seen and people she is seeing, each time a name is mentioned there is no real emotion, instead only a look of deflation and self inadequacy, she does not believe she deserves to be herself and fears she will not be accepted for who she really is… sad to see that her heart has been so damaged that she now believed she had to change herself to be happy.

I explain that in time she will be ok, it might seem hopeless now but the right people will come into her life to help her heal and move on. I say this to her “we often meet the right person at the wrong time and feel cheated for the missed oppertunity, the wrong person at the right time, we get hurt and feel stupid for getting hurt. Then in the end though the right person is there again when the time is right and that’s something worth waiting for and it makes all the pain go away.” As much as she didn’t want to admit it she was in the wrong place and was simply looking for distractions to help her silence her rampant mind and was willing to change who she was for a quick emotional fix.

“You do not need to change, let someone get to know the real you and you will be happy because they will want YOU for all you are, all you have been and all you will be, true me.”

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I see a natural smile of calm appear as what I have said sinks in.

We all need someone to listen and talk to at times and these people help us u understand one thing, we will be ok.

“Never change yourself for a person, be honest with yourself and the right person will come along when the time is right.”

A World

A world beyond these walls of mine,
A world beyond the engage of time,
A world beyond that which we know,
A world beyond where our freedom grows.

A world like this years to be found,
A world like this calls without sound,
A world like this beckons us all,
A world like this is just over the wall.

A world of adventure,
A world of life,
A world of meaning,
A world of time.

A world of new memories,
A world across the seas,
A world that is waiting for the move you make,
A world which waits on a risk you should take.

A world new world is out there.

A Second Star

“If you up at the sky, beyond the clouds where the stars shine bright, you will find your second chance.”

The Easter weekend has been filled with new memories, memories that eclipsed those that were held in my heart. Memories not of grandeur, expense or magnificent gestures but memories of those simple joys that life can offer us such as friendship, nature’s beauty and above all else the small & simple things, which in the end, become the big things that really matter.

It has been a long time since I smiled so much in one weekend, I had forgotten all that had caused such searing pain and finally allowed myself to look forwards properly for the first time.

The day lasts well into the evening where we are joined by welcome company.

“Mia” cannot help but say she is happy for me and how things have turned out, some words of advice were also uttered “don’t mess this up!” Both laughing I look her in the eye and tell her “not this time”.

As the night draws to a close “Mia” parts company with us, upon arriving at our destination I sit and find myself lost in “Sophia’s” eyes, filled with a look I’ve not seen in them before… we talk and I confess something that I hadn’t with any other until now “do you want to know something? As much as it means I can get hurt again by telling you, you’re in now. Now you have the choice to either take my heart of break it.” She me back at me with a smile and we talk further, I can feel myself being gripped by fear of the simple and honest words I say because these leave me open and exposed.

“A hard thing to say, I know you’re enough for me…” to her I say, I have had times in the past were I have had the opportune moment to vocalise my feelings, to give them substance and meaning with words and yet I always held back in past.

Now was the time for change, why waste a moment and leave words unspoken? You cannot leg go of fear, merely embrace it and channel it for a purpose rather than letting your mind be ruled by it.

I felt that rush of emotion that had long been drowned to.the sea of darkness which I had been sailing. To describe the feeling would be as if trying to discern Devine intervention from luck. Words fail me.

Knowing that you have the opportunity to be happy is akin to skipping a heart beat, you know it’s there but will you act on it? Will you throw caution to the wind regardless of consequence or will you not?

I chose to take the risk, to say how I was feeling, nothing held back. Why? because the time for a fork in the direction of my life and instead of wandering down a random path I chose one that I wanted.

Let all those who try to deter me from the path I’ve chosen try, they will fail, they will find my resolve slot tougher than they know.

Everyone deserves a chance to be happy, I had been lucky enough to be given a second.

This time I will be the best I can be, I alone are responsible .

“A second shooting star had come into my life.”