History Repeats Itself

“The calamities once again reappear in that continuous place”

What I saw tonight sickened me, the sheer amount of anxiety and fear resonating from one person was overwhelming… something was not right.

Various people entered my place of was this evening three in particular, “Liouse, Jay & April” as the walked in at different times something did not feel right, my gut was telling me something bad was about to happen.

“Jay” takes “April” to one of the toilets at my workplace, strange I thought trying to ignore this fact and continue as normal. I begin working with “Mia” all the time in the back of my mind I can hear a clock ticking, I begin to worry.

“Mia” cannot understand why I have a pensive look and begins to take an angry tone with me, “why do you care? It’s not your place too” I snap at her which she did not deserve “I pulled you out of the Shit didn’t I!” Which was followed by a personal jab at her recent situation.

I could feel myself getting more and more worried the longer I didn’t see sight of them. 

A couple of lads start knocking on the door of the room they are in after it has been locked for a considerable amount of time, what I saw next made my heart stop. “Jay” yanks the door open with a look of blind anger in his eyes, my suspicions had been confirmed, he was standing in front of the door so “April” could not leave.

Seeing this I made my choice instantly, I still had “Kains” contact details from his wife, so I decided to message him. Perhaps he could pull her out of whatever she had gotten herself into.

“Jay” and one of the bantering lads soon hit nerves with each other and things escalate at an alarming rate. They go outside and “Jay” begins goading the other lad into a fight.

Suddenly fists are flying myself on one other pull the apart, once resolved “Jay” goes in search of “April” with a possessed look in his eye. I was not made aware of what happened until after they left as I sorted the other lads out.

“Mia” spoke with me, what she told me was chilling from how he grabbed her hand to drag her away to forcing her to kiss him and even telling her everything ok and he is making a fuss over nothing.

All of that was trivial to this one sentence “Mia” uttered..

“He punishes her when she does wrong” There was more from “Mia” but those was the one that turned my stomach. 

After sending “Kain” a message I decide to phone him and tell him everything, true it was none of my concern but enough was enough this had to end, it was now upto him.

This was my final gift to her, once again I threw caution to the wind and made my choice any consequences that followed I would accept willingly. Even after all the lies, deceit and suffering she had caused me even she did not deserve this Hell of her own creation. Just because I was hurt does not mean I should leave her to suffer, as fitting a penance as that might be.

“Pain, suffering and bad memories fade but the one thing that is never forgotten is how someone treated you”


Sad Eyes

“Sometimes it’s hard to switch off and unsee the looks behind people’s eyes.”

Anxiety, uncertainty and fear is what I can see, masked by over expressive words and gestures that are set to create a false world of happiness, created to keep out those closest until there will be no one left who cares; until all that is left is an isolated Hell of their own creation and a broken shell who’s soul rotted away years ago.

To see such things haunts me, so scared, so helpless it’s sad really.

That said if that is their choice then people will accept it, only seeing the facade and allowing for the belief that it’s all “fine & happy” but if you really look you will see otherwise.

People choose to ignore that which takes place behind closed doors.

In the end a once vibrant person accepts their own world of misery, believing it is normal to feel worthless and unhappy yet still choosing to stay in such a place, why? Perhaps Love is the reason?  Who really knows. From all I’ve seen the answer is simple, they will stay out of fear.

If you look into the eyes of people you will know if they are happy.

“Your eyes cannot lie”