Things are coming to a close.
“April” had been talking to me more and seeing me more at work, I could see the look in her beautiful eyes, she was trying to let go she had told her family almost everything about how she was feeling. As more time passed I felt myself falling even deeper in Love with her which I did not feel was possible, I was fighting hard for her not just against my close friends who told me to give up but against myself I could feel the doors to my heart closing and I was between them keeping them open for her.
I had written “April” a letter and it laid everything on the line, it was my very heart & soul it was there for her to have forever. She had not opened it yet, I wrote on the back “Open when ready”.
More days went past and there was an amassing tension, something was going to give “April” was trying to be strong she had spoken to me, her family and close friends and everyone was trying to support her. I could feel her anxiety building and I could see she was beginning to fracture “Jay” had started to become more possessive and was treating her with no respect constantly checking on her and asking her questions.
It was the middle of the week and “April” was at my work to train she seemed quite happy and it felt almost like she was coming back to me. “Jay” had been in earlier that day and I see her on her phone which was strange no more than 5 min later he walks in looking for an apparent lost possession which he happened to have on him. He stood over her and then they left I could see she was not comfortable and I was furious.
This was the level of control he had over her and showed just how beaten down she had become, I put a very vocal warning on a social site we both used so he would know that his behaviour was getting to me.
After that incident I message her out of sheer worry saying if she needs to talk or just want a cuddle she can stop by. Hours pass and she messages me and I rush outside to see her, I sit and listen and offer my advice and comfort, I also tell her to go home and tell her family. Things where getting out of hand.
Over the next few days there is so much pressure on her I can feel her beginning to break, she is try to please everyone… even me. “Jay” starts to become even more aggressive and sends her abusive messages this was hard for me to know because of how much I care about her. Walking to work one morning I had not heard from “April” I had a gut feeling that she was with him, as I walk to work she drives past me…. I ask direct questions because things are getting very tangled in lies and deceit.
Later that day I get a message from “April” asking if I had said anything to “Jay” I was confused but he apparently had flown off the handle, I was very worried for her. She had told her family how he reacted and it as clear she needed to end things with him because she was not happy.
I cannot write too much about all the details because I made a promise not too but at least you will get the general idea. What comes next will end everything I could feel it.
The only problem was my gut was telling me I was the one who wasa going to be crushed under the weight of trying to keep the doors open for her.